Five years ago today I woke up thinking like I was in a dream. Has the day really arrived? Our wedding day? Will I finally be forever his after two long years of dating and courting? I laid in bed and stared at the ceiling amazed at God’s love for Alex and me. Five years ago today I was a bride, his bride. I did everything my amazing brides do on their wedding days. Woke up with butterflies in my stomach, anxious and so excited for what the day and the future will hold. I got my hair and make up done and laughed with my bridesmaids and family, got forced to eat something even though I couldn’t eat to save my life. Put my wedding dress on, and saw myself as a bride. And then I walked down the stairs where my forever groom was waiting for me. Our wedding day will forever feel like a dream. It was absolutely perfect.
Last night we sat down at my office, Alex claimed the office chair while I bounced on a yoga ball (operation “come on baby girl” is in full swing), and we looked through all our wedding photos again. We laughed, I teared up a few times, we awe’d and giggled as Abbie said the sweetest things about our photos. It was a first time tradition that I think will happen every year from now one. To sit down and bring ourselves right back to when we promised each other to never give up, to always choose to love one another despite everything, and to forever keep Christ as the foundation and the center of our marriage and now family.
A few days ago I joked with my sister at how Alex and I didn’t have a #weddinghashtag, and she’s like “I wish I had a snapchat geo thingy at my wedding!” I laughed and said “Girl, snapchat didn’t even exist when I got married.” As I was looking through our wedding photos together, I remembered all the things that had stressed me prior to the wedding, how I didn’t have a veil until the night before when my cousin offered me to wear hers, how my ceremony programs were printed and put together 2 days before the wedding day, all 250 of them (thanks to one of my favorite sisters in law Jennifer, who helped me with those), how we had to iron every napkin and table cloth 3 days prior to the wedding, for 400 guests. And sooooo many other things. Thinking back though, those things weren’t what made that day perfect, it was being surrounded by all of our loved ones and the celebration of our love for one another. And above all it was having it be a celebration of Christ’s love for us, his bride.
The last five years were great, surprising, tough, filled with laughter and enlaced with some tearful nights as we experienced loss and hurt. I don’t know the reasons why God allowed us to experience hard times during our first 5 years of life together, but I can’t thank Him enough for placing Alex by my side along the way.
Babe, you’re my best friend, my number one fan, my biggest supporter, my love, my partner in crime, my husband. I love you so much and I’m sorry you’re always the one that ends up getting hurt whenever we have tickle fights because the only way I get you to stop is by kicking you or twisting your fingers, I have no self control ha. I’m sorry you got the short end of the stick as I’ve finally started cooking a bit more after 4.5 years together. Thank you for not complaining when your dinner for 2 nights straight is cereal. I had many plans for our 5 year anniversary, but God gave us something much better, our rainbow baby who will be here any day now. Thank you for letting me cuddle with my body pillow for the past 3 months. Thank you for understanding when all I want to do is sleep all day while you work so hard to support our family. Thank you for carrying my pink camera bag and joining me on our photography journey. Thank you for not getting upset when I boss you around on wedding days. Thank you for the foot massages at the end of the day.
Today I want to promise you FIVE things that weren’t a big deal on our wedding day.
I love you so much, and I will forever thank God for throwing you on my lap seven years ago, when I thought I was going to be alone forever. I’ll always give Him thanks for giving you the courage to message me on Myspace.
Forever to go boo.
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